I feeling as if everybody is avoiding me, most people. Those people who are there are Siying and just a couple of my friends which goes out and have fun with me , talk to me and make me feel a hell lot better. Maybe i taking everything just too seriously.
People who i thought i can turn to, who i thought will kind of be there for me . They all just POOF! disappear. I can't CAN'T believe what i am feeling and thinking right this instance. Because everything i am feeling just isn't right, isn't what i used to be.
Isn't right.. I trying really desperately trying not to do something stupid or silly. I am trying i am trying so hard. The harder i try, it just worsen . I just think, everything. From eating to sleeping . I can't concentrate every single stuff i do. Everything i do i have to thing of that problem. I asked myself why? I can't even answer myself. I blame it on myself and i know it isn't my fault.
i trying to mask myself, trying to not blame myself for what happen. Trying to think positive and just move on.
I still trying .. I hope this will be over soon.. Cause right now, I am distraught. Yes. I miss those times too . I don't think we can reverse it . I hope i can sleep tonight. Shouldn't have read that.
I love this song :D It is always darkest before the dawn. I hope dawn comes.
