Sunday, June 7, 2009,9:20 PM
Movie ! :D
Daddy just went out for lunch and
afterwards to some BMW driving class
( Heard it when he was talking on the phone. He is like a mega- loud speaker)
Not that he can ever afford a BMW HAHA.
Omg. that reminds me when mommy used to drive me to primary school
and alloston's(argh. i forgot how to spell) mother drove this BMW.
So mommy made a nickname for him "the BMW boy "
LOL.
D:
I just realised i been rumbling about the past.
oh shit X:
i miss fishballs.
I want to swim !
It just makes me feel so muchh better :D Its a drug for me and i am addicted
WAHAHHAS.
@_@
The water just washed off my misery and anger.
All i can feel is me, water and my heart beat, nothing else.
Charrisa just come her that thing, and i just come mine too.
My hair is all dry and tangled. Argh.. Hate the chlorine water hahas.
Spoilt my haiirrr!
For the past 2 days, i dreaded when night comes.
Cause, lying on the bed is painful.
Yes. for the first time, it is.
That is when everything just come rushing to me.
And it just doesn't come once, it repeats and repeats and repeats.
The same old pattern
the same old words.
"Hurt" is just a word, hurt don't mean anything.
It can't feel, it can't understand.
I cried these two days when i am at night.
I am unsure of myself.
I don't want self-pity or whatever.
I just want to pour it out.
I don't take friendship lightly.
Friendship is my key weakness.
Mostly i strong in everything but when it comes down to friends.
I won't deny that i am weak, i will cry at the slightest thing.
I don't know what i feeling anymore cause right now all i feel is the numbness.
This is so sudden.
The impact is just a double blow for me.
Cause nobody ever walked out of my life before.
Just when i thought everything was prefect, it just goes down the drain.
I don't mind you running towards me and confining your troubles.
If you trust me and stuff, i will let you vent your anger .
How was i suppose to know that you are feeling down?
I thought maybe if i asked you are alright, you will just think of the stuff that is bothering you more and it will hurt you more.
Some friends aren't there when you need them.
But some friends will.
If you tell them, you will know.
Maybe you are confused or messed up .
I get it.
Everybody is.
Whose life is prefect?
Maybe you ought to feel what i feeling?
The world doesn't just revolve around you.
I am trying not to be so self-centred too.
Sparing a thought for you.
I got to go , have to meet laura ! :D
The words keep repeating in my mind.
The memories keep spinning in my head.
I pause and thought,
Did all these all come down to nothing?
Did our friendship worth nothing to her?
But it did to me.
Yes, i cried.
I have feelings.
I am fragile at times.
I am a human after all you know.
<3
